For as far back as my memory breaches my past, I remember reading while the others played basketball, writing when the others were coloring, helping when all else refused, and most of all, striving towards what others were not. My life has not derived from gardens, it has not flourished from beautiful sunlight and grown from the power of water and it's purpose. My mind is not designed by stability, structure, and satisfaction.
Actually, quite the opposite.
I knew what heroin did to a man before I knew how to tie my shoes. I knew what it took to take care of yourself before most kids were even allowed home by themselves. I learned that words didn't cure cancer, because my father still can't move as the "cure" of chemo runs through his blood. I knew trauma, I knew hell's contribution to reality, before I knew what it was like to smile without control.
The artist of my soul, was an artist that thought he could control. He could not be anymore wrong. Yes, my reality was so different than those who surrounded me. I did not have a happy family to come home to, I was not sure if my dad would survive through the night, I was consumed with images and memories that could only ever be suppressed, never forgotten.
These eyes are not colorful, because they have seen color.
However, my mind has been even more unique. I have looked at the world as a treasure since I was a child, love as a priority, conformity as a betraying concept. Life, has always been more to me than it has been to other people. The sun has always shined brighter in my eyes, space has always stretched my mind more than others. I, have simply always wanted to change the world. I, have always just wanted to be different. I, have always just wanted to make an impact.
Because, my life has been impacted so much. Scarred by immense images, designed by anguish and triumph, but motivated by the past. I, have always just wanted to effect the world as it has effected me.
I have reached beyond what the world may be trying to hold me to, as I chase what I love with writing and impacting. I wish to change the lives of many through stories and poetry across the globe, I seek to be special, by doing special.
I am a man, that has never fit in to the world.
I am a human, that chases immortality through the way I grasp my mortality.
I am a rose, that has grown from concrete.
I have started a website that reaches to those in pain through poetry, I have made over $10,000 for my dad and for racetracks across the United States through my automobile endeavors and promotions and reached national media attention because of it, I have succeeded in school and changed the lives of many in doing so.I have done more, than any man that has experienced and seen what I have experienced and seen would ever have the will to do.
And now, I take my next step in to revolutionizing my life, and the world.
I, am different, and that is my identity.
I truly do believe that your college is where I take the largest leap of my life to accomplish what I work so hard to accomplish. This is my chance at escape, this is my chance to change the world.
This is my opportunity, that is truly the climax of my life.
I hope, you believe me too.