Fear. It is venom crawling and consuming the heart, running within the veins of your body, consuming each thought process you give birth too. Fear. It is an undeniable restriction, it is a demon you attempt to murder with every risk you take, but it is immortal. Fear. It has won the war within me. It has struck me with the force of an Alex Rodriguez steroid swing. It has built walls rather than given me the strength to break them. It empowers my memories, designs my scars. Fear. It illustrates my psyche, as if it is a sadistic version of Van Gogh, manipulating me as if I am The Winter Soldier. Fear. It is manipulated by every human you give power over you, or has "control" over you. Fear. It is a drug I cannot snort nor smoke nor drink, it is within me. Fear. Please, take a moment to imagine the possibilities if you did not let it exist. Fear. It is the shadow of my life, the symbiote, the voice and lyrics of my instrumental, the super villain that has no weakness.
But not anymore. Fear. It is not real, it is but a dream, an illusion created by the elusive memories of my childhood. It is a destruction I will not entertain, a chaos that I will not obtain. It is translucent, an obstacle that I have overcome, a mountain I have climbed, a test that I have aced;
a super villain, I have defeated.
Teach me what fear is. I want to know what it feels like.
I am Danny Buccafusca,
and I don't fear the world,
I welcome it.
Fear, it is fueling the world around me,
but fear, is extinct in the world within me.
And that, is what I tell myself every day.
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