I Have 2 Cry

Yesterday, I had to live.
Today, I have to cry.
Because what I love,
is all that I have seen die.

Hang in there Dad, I know you can make it.
Please do not hide, the tears in your eyes.
They can awaken.

I'm sorry, world.
I have given you my all.
My spirit has imploded in all that the world can possibly mold in it.
But this pain, still stands tall.

Hang in there, Dad. You're a fighter.
And they say there is a flame of hope,
so I haven't stopped flicking this lighter.

I am on a path of spirit,
But the world is screaming at me,
and I can no longer act like I don't hear it.

I am done fighting, for a second of serenity.
I am tormented by reality,
memories.

I met a soulmate, and she died in my arms.
I met the devil on my shoulder,
and even he had a heart.

Hang in there, Dad. I wish you could see me happy, but I cannot control it.
God, I would give you my all for my dad to live,
I would even be homeless.

This is a cosmic dream, and the stars are shooting.
The world is wealthy of love,
and I am looting.

I am scared, for the first time.
I have truly given myself, knowledge of the universe,
But it still feels, like I have to cry.

My twin flame continues to run.
They say childhood is a time to be happy,
but it's been 17 years, and mine is not fun.

Hang in there, Dad. Don't leave me again.
I am just a child.
Hang in there, Dad.
I need a reason to smile.

I give the world inside of me, outside of me, energy of ferocity.
But they are scared.
My emotions are based on a democracy.

I have found myself, and all that I am meant to be.
But love leaves,
is that luck, or destiny?

I do not have to do your homework.
I do not have to do your chores.
I do not have to love you.
I do not have to be alive.
I am a sad soul, and I just have to cry.

This is a fiery creation, and I am trapped by the heat.
Is the higher power,
something that can be beat?

I pray to God, maybe he is real.
But I give love,
and yet he only gives to those that rob and steal.

I pray to God, the same man that gave my dad cancer.
I am angry at the world,
it is banging against my brain like a titanium hammer.
I search everywhere,
for one singular answer.

Hang in there, Dad. Don't leave me in pain.
This world is heroin,
and I have taken it's reality in vain.

I beat my friends. I cheat on girls. I scream, and ask why?
If I am in this much pain, why do I exist,
why am I alive?
I don't have to do anything,
besides cry.

A tear flows down my face, and you have no idea what it is filled with.
Sadness will not exist anymore, I swear I will kill it.

Danny Buccafusca, the kid everyone fears.
Danny Buccafusca, the kid that is weird
Danny Buccafusca, the kid that talks in tears.

Hang in there, Dad. 
I am your creation.
Hang in there, Dad.
If you leave, I will meet Satan.


All that I love, is all that I have seen die.
Yesterday, I had to live.
​But today, I Have 2 Cry.